“Look, a Negro!” and Vegan Cheese Heaven: Sistah Vegan in Europe Part II


Okay, when I tasted this cheese, it was from half opened package that was in my mother in law’s refrigerator. It was marked with the label vegan, so I ate it thinking it was vegan.

But it couldn’t be.

It tasted so damn good. Like no other vegan cheese I had ever tasted before.

I was convinced my mother in law had used an old vegan cheese package for her real dairy cheese.

But then I opened a new package of one and tasted it and could not believe it. It was vegan, but it tasted like cow dairy.

Why don’t I have access to this in California. Sorry to you Daiya lovers out there, but Wilmersburger rules! 

On a different, note…. I’m kinda getting sick of being stared at in München these days. Perhaps I am hyper-sensitive (the ‘safe’ term to use when you are a black woman calling out people’s racialized curiosities), but damn. Didn’t yo mama ever teach you not to stare at people!? It’s rude and impolite...

…perhaps [white] folk in Germany aren’t taught that? I mean, there is ‘glancing’ at a person that you are curious about for micro second and then there is STARING for 10, 20, 25 seconds. Yea, I got the afro, but that can’t be it. And yea, I’m pushing around my “lighter than me” babies in the stroller and perhaps there is some ‘confusion’ as how it’s possible that these babies could be mine? Just really weird stares that give the vibe of not ‘innocent’ curiosity, but stares that give the energy “you are not one of us, racially or nationally; you seem out of place”. This 9 or 10 year old girl on the train the other day would not stop staring at me FOREVER. I do not remember experiencing this in München when I was here in Summer 2010. I was like, “Yes, I’m a negro!” I am not making this up! (Okay, I am making up the part about telling her, ‘Yes, I’m a negro.’ )

By the way, since it’s hard to read tone here, I am taking these observations lightly. I’m not traumatized, upset and nor is my stay here being ruined by being stared at by grown ass adults and their children. I am attempting to be humorous. Hey, maybe they are like, “Wow, what a drop-dead gorgeous Negro,” instead of the whole Fanonian spin I have given it.


Plate of vegan cheese during Christmas Eve dinner. A sample has been sent to be analyzed so I can finally accept that I have been duped and that it is real cow dairy cheese…. results will come in next week.

9 thoughts on ““Look, a Negro!” and Vegan Cheese Heaven: Sistah Vegan in Europe Part II

  1. Awesome! Yeah Breeze, they’re just staring at you because of your awesome beauty. 🙂
    Oh, and you need to lobby to get that vegan cheese over here. Looks yummy!
    Btw, where did you send the sample? lol

  2. What you experienced in Germany seems to be common. I lived in Europe for over 14-years (I’m African American), and whenever I went to München, not only did they stare, with no sense of self-awareness, quite often then simply ignored me as those I literally was invisible. On more than one occasion I walked out of shops without my items because I could not get anyone to wait on me. My trips to Germany stopped, as I found it annoying after a while. I have traveled to other parts of Germany, and I have a nephew who lives there, and there are good people, of course, but the old-school racism in this country is deep and severe.

  3. I’ve never travelled to Germany, but I have heard other stories about hostility or unwelcome looks/remarks directed towards people of African descent in that part of the world. I have a personal theory that if there had been a significant black presence in Nazi Germany, the scapecoats would have been African-descended people rather than jews. Hmm.

    1. Dr. Cow is another vegan cheese that’s reportedly delicious and hard-to-believe-it’s-not-dairy (Haven’t been able to do a taste test.). Also hard to find in southern California. I’ve been making my own vegan cheese for awhile. It’s good-tasting, but I still miss having a sharp Parmesan-like vegan cheese for my weekly spaghetti. Will try the parmesan recipe in ARTISAN VEGAN CHEESE, by Miyoko Schinner.

  4. You’re looked at because you’re gorgeous, and so are the children. ENJOY–and let them learn. Remember how infants learn, by staring, then trying to chew on you.

    Actually, Hitler did “dispose” of Africans–the few in Germany–after he murdered gypsies, homosexuals, the physically and mentally handicapped, eventually, Catholics, protestants–all he feared. Ignorance is just that, and extends everywhere. Be intelligent.

    I was sent to an all white school in Chicago, as a sub, many years ago. Kids stumbled over themselves in the hall when I entered. In the kindergarten (German word) class, a blond girl leaned against my knee, saying, “Are you a colored?” “Yes, I’m a colored,” I said,”You’ve never seen a colored?” She smiled, said, “NO,” and skipped away. She did not seem afraid. just curious, and this was Chicago, 1960, and was only ethnic enclaves. This was either an Irish or Polish one.

    I was taught by my father to accept and disarm without fear or hostility. I’ve been in Germany and Austria, with “mixed” receptions.

    1. authorextraordinaire, I know very young take a Piaget approach to trying to figure out new things and people… but I am referring to something very different. I also have to say that I get stared at all the time when I am in the USA in mostly white areas (basically, when I leave a metropolitan area), I get the stares that really indicate, “You do not belong here. Why are you in MY [white] space” But hey, that is the story of the African Diaspora in white spaces of the Global West/North 🙂

      1. I am not being psychological/scientific, thinking of ignorant, uninformed human behavior in isolated communities like what you are experiencing.

        Also, like animals that sniff to identify, humans so similarly, unconsciously, except ours is visual, across distance. We don’t approach and smell crouches.

        Like you’ I’ve often been on the receiving end of stares–sometimes smiles, sometimes, the other. Consider that you are a powerful woman and your energy field extends ( aura).

        When I studied psychic healing, all in the class began to notice “attraction” to us, as we walked in stores, malls, etc. Our teacher told us to deliberately dampen our energy fields as this was unconscious behavior People “feel” something, and don’t understand what. Babies and small children thought we were “cool.” Even now, grandma can elicit a response by passing by, usually white women. A girl, maybe five, was puzzled by my energy recently. She didn’t like it. She would not speak, as most kids do, when I engage them. Don’t know what or why. Enjoy your gifts!

        You’re sending “signals.”
        Ask Talmadge if he knows how to make it “work” for you.

  5. Thanks for sharing the info on the vegan cheese. Will check for the test results. As for what you are experiencing, I had a similar experience in Italy years ago. Some people either fear those different in appearance, or think because we look different, we are not equals in the human equation. Wonder why they just don’t try saying “hello”? You have the right attitude and sense of humor and this will be added to the page in your life’s book. A very happy and eye opening New Year to you and yours!

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